Letting Go

Today i found out why my brother and his ex- girlfriend of almost 2 years broke up.  My brother did something to here that i didn't imagine him capable of. now, don't get me wrong, it was nothing to crazy bad. but if my boyfriend did it to me, i would never go back to him. It made me sad to hear that my own brother could treat this girl like that. We all loved his girlfriend! the even crazier thing is that she still loves him and would like to be with him someday again, maybe work through everything.. (she is clearly a bigger person than me) so my question, how do we let go of the ones we love?

Tough Times

You're losing me,
This game we started out playing,
so fun and innocently,
is now breaking me.
You use to care,
about my thoughts, feeling and ideas,
now i seem to take a back seat in your life
What happenned?
Where did we go wrong,
or is it just I?
i want to make this work
but with each passing minute, hour, day
i am losing hope in you.
i wonder if you feel the same way?
its not suppose to be like this.
You were suppose to be the one for me.
now it seems like that was a lie too.
im not trying to crush your dreams,
i am just trying to state my concerns,
but you will hear none of it.
There was a day
when you use to get excited to see me,
when you would whoo me
go out of your way for me
when did you become so selfish?
Did i ask to much of you?
or not enough?
I want to leave, move on,
but memories hold me here
and something else
which i cannot name.
please just listen one more time.
Try to hear me out.
i dont want to sound clingly or selfish,
but this is what you have brought me to.
We knew that this would be hard,
but you gave up trying
leaving me to carry the load.
its to heavy now
i am being crushed by the burden of it.
i cry out to you,
hoping you will hear
and maybe feel something for me
but your back is to me
and you attention is else where.
Who knows, maybe this is God's plan
do you still talk to him?
i do
all the time, begging and pleading with him
maybe his attention is else where too.
i know i am not the prettiest or smartest,
but that never seemed to bug you before.
my emotions are everywhere,
i am so mad at you for letting it come to this,
I am so sad that it feels over
and i am praying that i am wrong
that this is all in my head.
I love you
I must have said it to you at least a thousand times
but now i have trouble saying it.
do i still love you?
Yes, of course i do,
a part of me will always love.
i just wish you could do the same for me.
i don't know if you will ever read this
part of me wants you to,
just so you will finally know how i feel,
part of me hopes you wont have to,
that our relationship will grow strong again.
in the end there is not much more i can say.
i love you