Birthdays

Hello All,
Birthdays are a funny thing. I just celebrated my 21st birthday this weekend. It was a good time. But what makes them so funny is the fact that when we are young we look forward to our birthdays. We can't wait for them. we want presents and cake and the attention that comes with a birthday, but as we grow older we soon dread our birthdays. This year was the first year that i was not really excited for my birthday. i worked all day on my birthday. I only really got together with some of my family for supper. oh well..
Elisa

Here You Go Heart of Mine

Here you go heart of mine. Didn’t I warn you that life was cruel, that you would be broken down and beaten? That you would be left with big ugly scars? Though the physical pain my cease, some how you would always feel the emotional pain? My dearest heart, I wish there was a way that I could make this better for us. I wish we could go back and change what happened. But you know as well as I do, that I can’t do that. He may have ignored you, but somehow I never could. I want to tell you that everything will be ok, that one day you will not remember this day. One day you will no longer feel lonely. But my heart, these are guarantees that I cannot make. For the world has hurt you, and I don’t want to hurt you further by making promises that I cannot keep. I hope you can one day forgive me for the pain I put you through. How I made you how you are now, scars and all. What more can I say? I’m sorry seems like the right thing but some how not enough. But I guess this what I have to leave it at, I’m sorry my heart. We will grow and heal and move on one day. Please don’t give up on me yet…

Here you go heart of mine. I will put you up on the shelf where the world and all it has to offers can no longer bug you. You will never have to fight for your way again, because dear heart, you will grow old and dusty up there on that lonely shelf. You will be forgotten.  You will no longer hurt me. You will no longer break, for you will no longer feel. It might be tough at first but you will grow use to it after a while. Dear heart, please know that I am not putting you on the shelf for anything you have done to me, no, rather my precious heart I am putting you there to protect you, so we will no longer hurt through life. I will remain focused on the important things in my life, school that will eventually lead to work. Therefore, heart, I put it bluntly… I think it is best if we part ways now, and never look back. I hope you will not sit on that shelf everyday and night and think about the ‘what if ‘s’ and the ‘if it could have been’. For heart, we both know that we are better off with out each other.  I’m sorry, but this is for the best. I hope…

My Sun

So many faces everywhere, yet nobody seems to really care,

You saw me, as I ran from you,

But running has never been so good for me.

You see somehow I ran right into your arms.

That space which is so safe and warm

I’m not sure why, but you always take me back.

Funny how that is.

I fell for you once, and than twice, and now I do it almost daily.

The thought of losing you is so great, tears flow to my eyes.

You see, you have become my sun, with you I grow and bloom

Without you I wither and lose my way.

People always say that I could find another like you,

But when they say that I know that they don’t know you.